The First Day Of My New "Job"

Holy Schnikes! Today is the first day I am not employed by WBR, the first day of my new "career," new life, I could say. It's Monday, and unlike almost every other Monday for the last nine years of my life, I popped out of  bed before my alarm clock went off with a smile on my face. The day is my oyster; the world is my oyster!

Exciting, yet a little scary. The fear I feel, however, is nothing like the fear I had to overcome to get me to where I am this morning. For a long time now my heart has been calling me to follow my passions: yoga and writing. As I sat with these feelings for many months, I realized that meant leaving my full-time, secure, well-paying corporate job so that I could spend each day doing what I love. I knew that if I put the energy and effort into my yoga career, and ultimately serving others, that I put into my now-former job, big things could happen and I would have the opportunity to impact many lives and create the world that I wanted to live in.

You see, for most of my life I have been living at the effect of my life, instead of as the cause of my life. I've had an amazing life already in just 31 years, so can't complain, but it often lacked passion. I'm married to a wonderful chef who has known since he was a little kid that food and cooking were his passion. I was always jealous of him and wanted that for myself. After getting my 200-hour yoga teacher certification last year, I knew I had found my passion.

As I mentioned, living at the effect of my life hasn't been so bad. My life has brought me many great things: great jobs, lots of travel, interesting people. But when I am operating at the effect of circumstances, I find myself going after things that only bring me temporary fulfillment, that maybe aren't really "for me." Like searching through craiglist.org for a part-time job that is already created that might work for now to keep me busy and help pay the bills. I know that if I take that route, however, I will end up at the same place I have been coming to in my life over and over again: Lacking passion and inspiration, and not feeling like I am on the right path.

So I vow from this moment on to be the cause of my life, instead of the effect. I will search deep within my heart to determine what I want to create out of my yoga and writing career. And then I will pursue it (not worrying about what that looks like exactly or each specific piece of the "how") but having a vision as to where I want to go and what I want to do. That way, when the universe creates opportunities for me that are in line with my heart's true calling, I will recognize it to take them on full steam. I will make things happen that weren't going to happen anyway!

I better get started!