An opportunity has come to me to potentially work and live
in Singapore for a short time. But I would have to leave my current life, take
a risk, and come back to something uncertain. Leaving means my yoga classes may
not be here for me when I get back; my employer may question my loyalty and
dedication to my job; my family asks, how can you leave your husband for that
long?
Through my yoga journey I have learned to connect to a
deeper wisdom inside myself. Meditation each day brings me back to this place
of ease, simple-ness, and clarity. The more I have trusted this inner wisdom,
my gut, or my heart – whatever you’d like to call it – the more guided I feel,
and I believe that I am in the right place.
My gut is telling me that if I am offered the freelance gig
in Singapore, I should take it. That I can remain true to my commitments and
the important things in my life. But lately my head has been getting in the
way. I am questioning myself. I feel bad about how I am inconveniencing others
or will not able to be here for my husband, my dogs, my home, and my yoga
students. I wonder if the people in my life question my commitment to them? I
am worried about what they think.
But even as I write this blog the answers are becoming
clearer to me. I know where my commitments are and I can stand for them. It
doesn’t matter if other people question me as long as I am true to myself. I
know that I don’t want to live a life of regrets, and I have to remain true to
myself in order to live this way. I have to get out of my own head and other’s
heads, and come back inside me. I need to stick with my meditation practice and
be guided.
